Everyday we are bombarded by media images. Some are good, yet most are depressing and negative. Hey, that is the stuff that sells. It is hard to not get dragged into the belief that the world is a bad place, that most people are evil and that there is nothing that the everyday person can do, except protect themselves and their families from the scary world that we live in.

I came across a magazine promo to help balance... more

I remember Chris crying after she was born. I remember him having me hold her all swaddled in her blankets. I also remember telling him to take her back because I was about to drop her I was so tired and drugged. I don't remember her crying. The detachment that I felt from pregnancy and delivery was huge. Like watching a movie on lifetime, not my real life. It was the drugs and the exhaustion, not the dramatic fantasy I had played out in my head for so long.

Now she is 3. People tell me that it goes so fast, yet it really hasn't yet. When I look at her and think about our experience together, she should be about 7 now. But she is 3 and everything I needed, although nothing... more

Three years ago yesterday, I was in the hospital, having my daughter after 26 hours of labor and a c-section. Just thinking back to that day makes me exhausted. Coming down to delivery felt like I was nearing the end of the longest infertility/pregnancy/labor marathon that anyone could have ever dreamed up in their sick minds.

While I was on the operating table, some of the anesthesia dripped into my lungs, making me not able to feel myself breathing. It was the oddest sensation. Before I said anything to the doctor, through my mind I was thinking that I was dying. I was thinking that this was it, there would be no more of me after this surgery. The panic that I expected at... more

From thisarticle, I also found out that it is possible to achieve pregnancy while suffering from an eating disorder. This is mostly true for women who are bulimic, in part, because they are able to have a healthy body weight during their bouts with their disease.

From the article, here are some of the risks of being pregnant while having an eating disorder:

Getting pregnant while suffering from an eating disorder increases the risk of:

Gestational diabetes Preeclampsia Labor complications Needing a c-section Postpartum Depression... more

Above my posts on this blog is a banner that advertises certain resolutions to infertility and information on adoption and such. While I was reading through my comments a while back, I noticed that all three ads were regarding eating disorders. Knowing that there must be a link between the two, I delved further into the connection.

The site pregnancy-info.net had the following information.

Right out of the box, I got a surprise that I didn't know about... more

After my surgeries for my miscarriages, I lived in my robe. It is so ratty and old and falling apart that you wouldn't believe that it survives the wash like it does. I have had this robe for years, at least a decade, maybe even two! It is blue and white striped cotton, lined with white terry cloth.

It was a Christmas gift from my Nana. It has seen me through finals, marriages, divorce, recoveries, pregnancies, breast feeding, and countless nights of pacing the floor with various worries. It has become my second skin.

Last year it began falling apart and I began negotiations with a client about turning it into a blanket, pillow case, or something like that to rescue it... more

I was sitting in church this Sunday listening to others share their joys and concerns. A woman stood up and wanted prayers for her granddaughter and grandson in law. Her granddaughter had just suffered a miscarriage last week and she was concerned for them.

While she was talking and sharing the news my mouth went dry. My stomach hardened. I remembered going to my first church service after my miscarriages and wanting to get up and share what had happened, but I couldn't. I just sat quietly with tears running down my face. It was hard being there, but even harder to not be there. All of the memories around that time are difficult to remember. During that period in my life, there... more

This may be old news to some of you, but it was new news to me today. I was in the waiting room at my son's doctor's office, reading a newer issue of Psychology Today Magazine. In one of their little blurbs, they mentioned a study in which hypnosis aids women undergoing ivf. The actual study was not mentioned in the small article, but, thanks once again to google, I found the study.

Reported on August 24, 2004 www.OurJerusalem.com ran the article. Quoting David Brinn, here are some of the highlights of the article:

If... more

Here is some advice from Akeeyu at HerVeryOwn blog that I entirely agree with for all of you new-to-blogs readers:

I hate this stage. I am loathe to type a single word when I know we'll be cycling so soon because I suspect that in six weeks I'll just be one more example of why you should never read infertility blogs backwards. It's too depressing to read about stale hope and old loss when you know how things come out in the end. Sometimes I go back and read old entries and am struck by the urge to yell "Look out!" at the screen, as if I'm watching a horror movie late at night. Reading backwards means that you know... more

I got an email this week mentioning the ov-watch. I was curious to see what it was all about.

Upon first seeing the above photo, I thought to myself, "No way, would I wear that!" I had images of wearing the watch in public, at work etc. People coming up to me, knowing that I was trying to get pregnant. Again, "No way!" But after reading through their site, I learned that you only wear the watch at night, so your conception plans can remain private if you wish.

Here's how it... more